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[14 May 2005|07:07pm] |
Holy Shit.. I was a little board and figured that I'd look up livejournal. Wow.. I haven't updated since December! (As You can see.) So much has happened since then. If you know me, then you know what's been going on but here's a quick update anyways:
-On Jan. 2, Travis asked me out. We've been going out ever since. I love him so much. I've never felt this way about any other person and I hope it never fades away. He means everything to me, and I would do anything for him. I love you baby!
-Went to Ocean City with JAC^2 for a weekend. Had a kickass time! I love those girls.
-I haven't listened to Shinedown in the longest time, actually a good thing i spose.
-Went to the Maroon 5 concert with Julie & Mirielle. Tons of fun.
-Going to The Killers with my sister on June 8th (her birthday)
- Got my learners on April 5 : The day I was able to get it.. Travis was a little jelous that I got mine b4 him.. haha. I laughed.
So, now that you're all caught up, I can make a regular entry. alright..
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Lately school has been such a bitch. I can't stand it. The only motivation to go to school is to see Travis. I find myself looking at the clock every 10 mins. I'ts quite sad actually. I'm actually doing pretty bad in school right now. I've gotten so lazy with everything. Culinary sux ass. It's gotten so bad that I'm actually failing World History. I've never been failing a class in my whole entire lifetime. The only reason for it is bc I'm apparently missing 3 assignments out of the 9 that we have. I know it's my fault.. but my mom totally over reacted. She said I couldn't be online (haha) I couldn't talk to anyone on the phone- which sux.. I always have to talk to my baby b4 I go to sleep- SHE TOOK AWAY MY HFS TICKETS!! and I can't go anywhere. I'm on lock down. That's why I deiceded to get online.. hmm. I know I'm punished. Oh well. When the parents are away, The Candi will play ;)
Pray for me and hope my life gets better :( PLEASE.
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| Whatever happened to the young mans heart swollowed by pain as he slowly fell apart.. |
[10 Jan 2005|05:44pm] |
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I can't stop listening to Shinedown. Their so good. Amanda told me its because theres an under-lying meaning to it. I realize its there.. I try to ignore it. I don't like dealing with things that I know need to change. Yet at the same time, I know they need to. In due time..
Christmas Break is only one day away. I'm so excited to get/ give gifts! Tomorrow I'm exchanging gifts with Jac^2. (J = Julie, A= Amanda, C= Catherine C= Candi - Incase you didn't know) I love those girls. They are my world. I don't know what I'd do with out them. I think I enjoy giving gifts more then getting them. Sure I like getting stuff (esp. clothes if I pick them out) who doesn't? But I love to see the look on people's faces when they open their gift. It's what Christmas is all about.
It snowed for the first time the other day! I love the snow. too bad it wasn't enough to close/ delay schools, soon enough I suppose.
45- Shinedown
Listening to it Now:
Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf
Left for you no one else
Theres a peice of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt sealed up tight
Whatever happened to the young mans heart
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart
And I'm starrin down the barrel of a 45
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Starrin down the barrel of a 45
<3 that song.. sad.
Well on that happy note, Merry Chrismas!! haha.
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| Mike and Scott's Race.. and his mom. lol |
[11 Dec 2004|11:01am] |
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Last night was so much fun. Me n Amanda went to Timontium Fairground to watch Mike n Scott race dirtbikes. (Nick Henderson too.) It kicked some ass.
Everbody says that Nick is the best, and he really is. He made it all the way to finals (so did Mike- somehow :-/) when Mike ran over his foot, and caused them both to crash. I'm not gonna lie, I laughed. lol. It was funny, but I know if I was Nick, I'd be pissed. Oh yeah, and Scott had no rear brakes, so he had to go slow around turns, which caused him to go into like last place, almost everytime. Poor Scott. Oh well, he owned the straight aways though.
As soon as we got there we saw Scott and Austin sitting so we went over. Scott: "What are you two doing?" "Uhh.. what do you think we're doing Scott?" What kind of a greeting is that. lol. I love him though. "Have a seat." haha. So we sat down next to this lady, who had to move all her stuff (I felt bad, Amanda didn't lol) and turned out to be Mike's mom. "Hi, I'm Debbie." so nice. She really was. She explained the race to me, and we talked about her being a grandmother n stuff, she was just a pleasent person. Everytime Mike/ Scott/ or Nick would get up to race, she'd let us know. (Even though, we were watching for their numbers.)
Then Tiffany came in, and we talked for a while, watched the race. Then they raced, and we watched in awe. lol. I got some good pix I might post later. (That's a Not. But you can ask to see them, If you know me lol.)
After the finals, and all the awards were given out everyone started to clear the cow palace (lmao) and we were left standing outside.. alone.. in the dark.. in the rain. It was cold. And then.. we saw Mike n Scott drive away waving. Which made me mad bc I know that if I was someone else more important to them, that they would have actually stopped to say goodbye. But it's all chill now.
So as me n Amanda were standing there, we were thinking, " What if they came back to say goodbye? I'd be like aww." n then.. out of nowhere, came their truck lol. They hopped out and I thought. " Wow, they actually came back to say goodbye, that's so sweet." ..they didn't. Mike thought he had won some money.. and they went back inside to find it. (I don't know if he actually did.. I doubt it. -Sorry Mike-) So as we were standing there, Mrs. Debbie asked us if we wanted to wait in the truck with her. HELL YES! We hopped right on in that bitch mofo. (Sorry got a lil gangstaa for ya.) So we waited for amanda's mom to come, and Mike n Scott were still inside. (For like 10 min.) I was surprised to hear that Mrs. Debbie wasn't feeling well.. she played it off oh so well. seroiusly. I realized how dedicated of a mom she really is, and how much she loves "Micheal." lol. So cute.
All in all it was a great night.. I look forward to going to more of them and talking to Mrs. Debbie. Is it wrong that I want to hang with her? lol.
"Micheal." lmao.
<3
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[30 Nov 2004|04:26pm] |
So this weekend was fun. Recher was great, Eric's band has a kool sound. Cat n Amanda are always fun. Today in Culinary we made Milkshakes and played hand games.. what a great use of time. Hope the rest of the week goes well. I can't wait until next weekend!!
- Scott & Mike's Race Fri.
- Shinedown at the Recher Sun.
Fantabulous!
<3
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| Thanksgiving |
[26 Nov 2004|08:13pm] |
Ahh.. great week. *sighs of relief* With only 2 real days of actual school work, it seemed pointless at first, but then we got to the good part of the week. Turkey Turkey Turkey! Yumm.
You know that feeling when you get as a little kid when "Santa's" coming, (obviously not if ur a jew) and how excited you'd get about seeing all ur family and eating a bunch of really good food? Well I usually get really siked for the holidays, but yesterday just felt like a normal day where I got to eat alot of food and pray that my pants didn't split. lol. Oh well, I guess it's part of "growing up."
Today I went and saw the Polar Express with the fam. It was unusual, but I learned that families can get along for hours at a time. It was a miracle. The movie was cute. After my dad almost ran me over with the car (not joking, but let's not go there,) we came home and ate more leftovers. I'm all for the Thanksgiving feast and leftovers, but if I see another peice of turkey, I'm going to kirk out. Seriously.
Tomorrow is a day Reserved for Jac^2. That's right mofo's. We kickass.
Sunday going to the Recher to see Erics band, Glass Onion. Fun stuff.
Don't ask quesions, just accept it.
<3
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| Suck ass Week |
[22 Nov 2004|03:29pm] |
Tired. Hungrey. Exhausted. Pissed off.
Today in Culinary we presented our fish dishes (I know, it's really random,) and my fish fell apart after I took it out of the pan. So I didn't know how to present it. So I asked Chef Joe, and for the rest of the class he was up my ass, and basically yelling at me the whole time. I felt like telling him to fuck off. I didn't think that'd get me very far.. maybe to the office.
The only good thing was seeing Mike and Scott in the hallways and mike yelling like a nig. "Holla!!!" I was like, "Mike, ur not black!" and he was like, "Yes I am." Mind you we're yelling this through the hallways while theres a shit load of people around. I love those boys, they always make me laugh at the stupid shit they do.
Ugh.. *Heavy Sighs* I wish I had different parents who would let me do things and go places. I've learned not to question things, because I know I'll never win. And if I to do something, she'll punish me or something, and I'll obey.. because I'm a little pussy, that works at Initech. (haha amanda.) ..but it's true. Oh well.. I can't wait til I get my lisence. I'll be so far gone.
Scott: i got in a spackle fight at school in carpentry
^only you. Detenstion much?
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| The week that will never DIE.. |
[18 Nov 2004|06:46pm] |
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Right now, so many things are passing through my mind, it's insane. Emotions running high.. I swear, this week has gone by so slow.. and so much drama has taken place, that I can't even begin to explain. I'm tired of words being thrown around and being broken down into misconceptions. I hate it. That's how things get so screwed up. On the up side, the weekend is almost here, and I'm going to go out n get away from this house for a while with my girls. I cant wait. I seroiusly need a vacation.
<3
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| When will the insanuty end? |
[05 Nov 2004|04:33pm] |
Today me, Amanda, Catherine and Antwann talked to Mr. Freed about our grades. He basically told us that he would notfy Ms. Lynch about the dicipline issues as well as the grades and it would go from there. I hope this resolves the problem. I"m so tired of this crap..
<3
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[03 Nov 2004|06:30pm] |
onlypublicenemy1: my dads really pissed at me
Hey Look A Stove: ..why..
onlypublicenemy1: bc i rode my bike with no helmet
onlypublicenemy1: doing a wheelie down the rode
Hey Look A Stove: goodjob dumbass
Hey Look A Stove: I hope u don't get hurt.. but u really need to wear ur helmet
Hey Look A Stove: what were u thinking?
onlypublicenemy1: nothing like always
Hey Look A Stove: well u need to start
Hey Look A Stove: cuz I'm not putting flowers on ur casket
onlypublicenemy1: i do
onlypublicenemy1: tht was the first time
onlypublicenemy1: tht i havnt in along time
Hey Look A Stove: ok, but I"m jus sayin
onlypublicenemy1: yeah u would put flowers in my casket
onlypublicenemy1: shit dont lie
Hey Look A Stove: ok, I would, but by that I meant I don't want u to die
Hey Look A Stove: but, I would
Hey Look A Stove: bc I love you, and I don't want anything to happen to you
onlypublicenemy1: uh huh
onlypublicenemy1: exactly
onlypublicenemy1: lol
Hey Look A Stove: esp. bc of something stupid like that
onlypublicenemy1: i kwn ud put flowers in my caske
onlypublicenemy1: t
Hey Look A Stove: ok, when I said that I just said I didn't want u to die
Hey Look A Stove: but do u get my point?
onlypublicenemy1: yeah
Hey Look A Stove: ok
onlypublicenemy1: i did the frist time
onlypublicenemy1: shit
onlypublicenemy1: lol
onlypublicenemy1: im jsut messen around
Hey Look A Stove: sorry lol
onlypublicenemy1: i wasnt doing a wheelie on purpose
onlypublicenemy1: it was the power
Hey Look A Stove: ok
onlypublicenemy1: lol
onlypublicenemy1: shit
onlypublicenemy1: aha
onlypublicenemy1: i wouldnt dare to do a wheelie on tht bike on purpose
onlypublicenemy1: id die
Hey Look A Stove: ok
Oh Scott.. u need to learn that thing on r shoulders sweetie.
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[02 Nov 2004|01:50pm] |
Fill this out in my comment link. How well do you really know me?
1: What's my full name?
2: When's my birthday?
3: Where do I want to live?
4: How old am I?
5: Where was I born?
6: What color eyes do I have?
7: What color hair do I have?
8: Do I have a bf/gf?
9: What's my favorite color?
10: What's my favorite girls name?
11: What's my favorite guy name?
12: Flowers or Candy?
13: The beach or the movies?
14: What's my favorite holiday?
15: Where would I want my honeymoon?
16: Hugs or kisses?
17: Where do I hope to find myself in 5 years?
18: How many kids do I want to have?
19: Name one of my pet peeves?
20: Is there anything I'd put first over family and friends?
21: Where would you say I've had the time of my life?
22: What is my dream job?
23: What is my best quality or feature?
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There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reasons
Great Song <3
Nothing new.. Today's election day so we're off school.. As if it's a real holiday. syke! Ok, I'm sorry, but I could really care less about politics. And I don't pay attension to it enough to be able to make a decision. I doubt if I'll ever vote. However horrible that may be. I think it's ok to not vote as long as you don't complain about what's happening in politics, bc then you have no room to talk about anything considering you didn't give ur input. Well.. that's my little speech for the day.
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| She wanted to hear u whisper those precious words again.. |
[30 Oct 2004|09:10pm] |
Last night me, amanda n Cat went to Julie's house. it was kool, always have fun with those girls. Bobbie, and his friend Mike came over n we hung out.. it was fun, Mike's kool. :)
Last night i had the wierdest dream.. a building was collapsing and I was inside with Amanda, Mike, Scott, Ashly, Alyse, Travis, Julie n Cat. All of a sudden people started randomly falling out windows left and right. The only people left were me, Amanda, mike n Travis. We were all looking around, and I remember feeling like a ton of bricks just hit me.. and my heart was going a mile a min. Ok, I was about to die.. I was a little scared. Then my phone rang and I woke up. I wish I hadn't woken up. I wish I knew what that meant, and what was going to happen. Sometimes things are left unsiad, but maybe it was something that could have been shown. I guess I'll never kno.
So Nick started talking to me again the other day. I don't know what the silence was about, but it was akward. Still is. All I kno is that I'm glad to have my old friend back.
Got a letter from Chef J, I miss him alot. Chef Joe can't touch Chef J.
Can't touch this *does Hammer Time dance*
..I'm done.
I hope something good comes out of the coming week. Have a happy halloween!
<3
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| All Alone I Fall To Pieces.. |
[27 Oct 2004|02:05pm] |
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It's been about a year now since I've had a boyfriend, and I'm not gonna lie, I feel ::alone:: I feel so misunderstood, even by the people closest to me. The way I feel is, If you like me, fess up. If you don't, don't play it off like its sum joke and then pretend we're ok. Because it's not, and you know it. We're in High School, not kindergarden. I fall for the smallest things and in the end I get hurt and that's usually how it turns out. Everyone's like ,"Candi you can get a guy u just gotta put urself out there." Well I am putting myself out there, and nothing's happening. Ah! I just want to scream. I don't kno what to do. I guess I just need some time to think.
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| Same Shit, Different Week |
[16 Oct 2004|06:48pm] |
Well this week has been eventful. The whole ordeal with my friend about her smoking and changing herself to fit in with her new bf and his boys really blew up. Some things were said that made no sence, and really pissed me off.. but it's all resolved now, and it's done with. So I'm happy about that.
The whole Chef Joe situation has gotten out of hand. How can u give people the EXACT same grades with the EXACT same comments on their interums?!?! It's not right. When we all asked him about it he said that no one does A work and there's too much goofing off and talking. Syke! Culinary is a social activity! We're doing Santitation, it's not like were standing around doing nothing, well atleast I'm not, and it's not like were having a lesson plan. When were done our work, yea we goof off, theres nothing else To do. W/e, it ercs me. N I swear if people don't start doing their work I'm gonna kirk out on someone n it's not gonna b pretty!!!
g2g.. goin bowling
<3
homecoming 2mar w/ Steph n the girls @ Et. We're gonna rock the hizzouse!
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"True"
I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
<33 Dedicated oX
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| Be tru 2 urself!! |
[07 Oct 2004|02:47pm] |
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My friend got this new boyfriend who I don't kno, but alot of ppl don't like him. So I was like w/e, lemme find out for myself. So, this year I don't have any classes with her, but we still see eachother after school n we talk b4 the busses leave. The other day she was no where to be found. When I looked up, here she comes lookin kinda flustered. She walked up to my other friend and breathes in her face. She goes," Do I smell like smoke?" my friend (let's call her.. Mab) says," Yea a little, why?" n she goes, " Oh ok, cuz I was just smoking a cigarette." I was so mad, I had to just walk away.
Ok, this might not sound like a big deal to you, but this is my point of view. When me n my friend were talking one time, I asked her if she had ever gotten high. She said, no, I don't like the taste of cigarettes or anything so I don't smoke. Meaning, she didn't like smoking. (obviously) So this puts the idea in my mind that she was only smoking bc her bf was.
In my opinion, if ur gonna smoke, smoke bc u want to, and u like to. Not bc someone else wants you to. It's things like that that make me mad bc ur not being tru to who u r. Just giving in to something else. Yea, everyone has to grow up sometime, and change a little to adjust to their surroundings, but when u dont want to do something, you shouldn't. esp just bc u want to b excepted. I woulnd't care if she smokes if it weren't for this reason. I kno plenty of ppl who go n smoke/ get high, and I'm still friends with them.. I don't care. Just don't ask me to do it. I feel alot better now. <33
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[03 Oct 2004|07:58pm] |
1: What's my full name?
2: When's my birthday?
3: Where do I want to live?
4: How old am I?
5: Where was I born?
6: What color eyes do I have?
7: What color hair do I have?
8: Do I have a bf/gf?
9: What's my favorite color?
10: What's my favorite girls name?
11: What's my favorite guy name?
12: Flowers or Candy?
13: The beach or the movies?
14: What's my favorite holiday?
15: Where would I want my honeymoon?
16: Hugs or kisses?
17: Where do I hope to find myself in 5 years?
18: How many kids do I want to have?
19: Name one of my pet peeves?
20: Is there anything I'd put first over family and friends?
21: Where would you say I've had the time of my life?
22: What is my dream job?
23: What is my best quality or feature?
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| I Love Culinary.. With A PASSION |
[01 Oct 2004|03:35pm] |
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Omg, last night we had the Freshman Dinner @ Culinary, and I was a server, with Amanda as my busser. (The Freshman dinner is where all the sophomores make dinner for the freshman and their parents to show them what we've done in the past year.)It started yesterday after school when Me, Jon, Julie, Amanda, Antwann n Becca went over to McDonalds for Dinner. We sat there for about an hour 1/2, and ate like the fatasses we truely are.
Julie: Alright, let's go
Me: What are you talkin about? I'm ready for the second coarse.
*Goes and gets McFlurry*
After that we went back to school and fooled around until it was time to work. WE ran around the school like we were in thre Breakfast Club.. and played some games. It was a lot of fun. Then the dinner happened. I was really nervous since it was my first time serving, but it all turned out ok. Esp. having Amanda right there with me. WE make such an awesome team! But the real fun didn't start until after the dinner.
OK, so the dinner was over at like 7:45 and we cleaned up and were out of there by 8:30. We started playing tag out in the parking lot while Dan, Eric, Catherine and Jon went over to Smoothie King. Then when they got back we sat n talked.. and watched Eric, Dan and Jon take turns jumping over bushes and acting like jackasses. It was a load of fun. Omg I love Culinary so much. Everybody is so awesome. It's though kind of memories that are going to make me cry when I get out of high school and look back on it. I seriously am so glad that I chose Carver, and that I have such a great group of people/ friends there to be there for me through the good n bad. Seriously.
All in all, it was a great experience. Let's hope the next dinner, and all the ones after that go just as smoothly.
<33
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